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| the holiday finally comes to an end, tomorrow will be the very last day. To summarize my holiday, I have gain something and I have lost something however I just cant tell what they are. Still, Im very emotional and like dreaming or looking back the old days, like who I was. As a result, I know I havent grown up much, just like what mom has told me a few days ago in the phone. I didnt know what to do to get changed however, because im pretty sure this will be my personality fixed for the rest of my life, or at least for the following years in uni. I reli dont know if im affecting people around me or not, but at least not to the group i knew 2 months ago.
When getting into a new group of friends, I would first think of all the people are kind and friendly, and they have a good relationship to each other. it takes time to understand them, and sometimes, it is kind of hard to except people's negative side after knowing their good ones. but i still, like this feeling of being together with these people, no matter what we are doing, not we are actually doing nothing at all (ar......hea).
No matter how many times i believe in that person, i always find out that person doing something at my back again, and of course, im not the only one to say, im the one keep believing and ignoring the problem though. it is so hard to keep the atmosphere with them when u know of something bad happens at the back, but, there is only a month to go, this is what i always tell myself.
everything was running so well 2 months ago, but just to me, i dont know how was some other people thought of however. maybe i ahouldnt have shown up, or what i can do is let it flows. this is what i think i hv lost in the holiday.
today, i heard of another story of someone else, which made me interested to find out more, which is reli bad. i hv never think of knowing that much, but it just came to me all in a sudden. how does every little thing has changed that person, what has that person done in the past......so on..so on...then come back to myself, what reli did change me, and what did i actually do. and i reli dont know.
come on, another month to go, another month to stay with them, another month to know, another month to lose
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| in denis's house, playin......playin guiter hero stayin in da fanny's again this term break n crystal is going to leave in a few days ALONE AGAIN!! nefaminddddd, gota get some entertainment myself. however da worst thing is i hv got sore throat....cant talk at all at d moment...... !! did some shoppin$$$$$AIIIIII | | |
| 不想纯情 不够聰明. 就算這様跟你的距离会没那麼近,但我不是她. 我死也不要装做這種人- -||| 妳高興了吧!? | | |
| like i finally kinda interested in doing maths, but stil, poor at it. finally get contacted wif mom n sister, mom was pretty mad i didnt call again at weekend, but i wassss reli bc. n sister was like, totally hv no idea wt was going on wif my life, lol. so sori... wt abt 2nite? | | |
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